these are just some quotes and phrases i've collected. setiap baca apa yg bagus gitu selalu gw catet di hp, eh tau2 udah numpuk. enjoy reading! ;)
I savored every moment with you like a child lingers over a lollipop
Change isnt always for the worst; the shell that forms around a piece of sand looks to some people like an irritation, and to othes, like a pearl
When you are sad or lonely, think about how much God wants to be your friend
I watched him walk away with sickness in my heart – though it was a pleasing kind of sickness, if such a things exists. I mean to say that if you have experienced a moment more exciting than eny in your life, you are sad to see it end and yet you still feel grateful that it happened (memoirs of a geisha)
The right self belief: i am what God says i am (sidney mohede)
Always be yourself because people who mind dont matter and people who matter dont mind
The time when you start takecaring your face is how your face will look in the next 10years (miss wan, on a grooming class organized by bukit panjang)
Some things are just better left unsaid
Only in the agony of parting do we looks in the depths of love
It is not the how to but the why i do something that is important. It is the why that gives you the power to do the how to. The reason why most people do not do what they can do is because they do not have strong enough why (robert kiyosaki)
His familiar husky voice sent a wave of wistfullness through me. A thousand memories spun in my head, tangling together (bella, eclipse novel)
But i have this longing in me, that the King of heaven would label me an extravagant worshipper. To worship is to be full of adoration, to bow down, to revere and to hold in awe in the beauty of God (darlene zsech)
Passion gets people’s attention. People want to follow people who are passionate and living for a cause. Unfortunately, the cause of Christ is not the only one people commit to (christine caine)
What would be worse than being born blind? To have a sight, without vision (hellen keler)
He who spends the most time wins (jeanne mayo)
Doubt dies unborn if its is not spoken
Once a conjuring trick is explained, it loses its magic (paul arden)
On stealing: it is not where you take things from – it is where you take them to (jim jarmusch)
Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you’ve got and fix it as you go (paul arden)
Saying goodbye to someone you care about deeply is like ripping a scab off a wound: it takes a while for the pain to stop, and even longer for the scar to finally heal
God is God and i am not. I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting. God is God and i am man. So i’ll never understand it all for only God is God (steven curtis chapman)
God loves you. He wants you to relax in the knowledge of that love. He wants you to experience the peace of mind that comes from resting in His love and living without the torment of fear and doubt (joyce meyer)
Have you ever had a teacher? One who saw you as a raw but precious thing, a jewel that, with wisdom, could be polished to a proud shine? If you are lucky enough to find your way to such teachers, you will always find your way back (mitch albom)
Hold on to your dreams. There will come day when they will seem foolish. But they arent. This world wants to steal your heart away and damage your precious innocence. But there’s something more God has for you.
Even something as simple as a kiss becomes unforgettable and priceless when the author of romance is scripting the love story (eric and leslie ludy)
I realize that every moment we spent apart adds even greater beauty to the time in the future when we will spend our lives together as one (eric and leslie ludy)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
updates updates
this is what i've been doing lately:
dinner with mr gary, mr lim, and pa marihot. mr gary is super nice. we ate in longbeach, geeze that was surely expensive. i heard the cheapest is like $45-50 per person! we ate 9 dishes excluding the desert and eat no rice! we ate expesive dishes like black pepper crab, mozarella cheese wrapped scallop, everything is just so yummy! ;D mr gary even gave us A LOT of cookies for christmas gift.
buy christmas gift for the girls' secret santa! that will be a blast im sure. we'll exchange gifts but we wouldnt know who is that from haha. fun fun fun. then watch twilight with miss cheng and her friend dira. dira is fun!
today im going to city harvest church. so curious. its like singapore's hillsong. wonder how it will be like. and this eve will be their christmas celeb. and there'll be candlelight! aaw cant wait.
i still have to go to bras basah to buy a lot of books and to changi to buy tickets. i think im gonna buy after harvest. and christmas shopping too! but i think i'm able to hold the desire til im in indo! MANGDU HERE I COME. mom let me shop a lot (a lot, and i mean A LOOOOT) in mangdu okaaaaayy? ehehe. compare to singapore mangdu is heavenly cheap!
i think i'll upload less pics in my blog since facebook is easier, haha. so this will just be the stories i guess. and now i also make an expense list in my laptop to control my money. im have to be a smart shopper.
next week a lot of my friends will be going with their parents til new year. i hope im gonna do fine without them. think i'll go to Malay with andri and lola if they arent busy. and hwachong will make a christmas and countdown new year celebration! yeay. i love living in hwachong. but for new year eve i'll go to esplanade with the indons seniors. there wil also be orientation 2 in hwachong for 40 sec1 Malay scholars, and i've signed up to be the orientation group leader. its a good activities to kill time i guess. hope it'll be fun.
dinner with mr gary, mr lim, and pa marihot. mr gary is super nice. we ate in longbeach, geeze that was surely expensive. i heard the cheapest is like $45-50 per person! we ate 9 dishes excluding the desert and eat no rice! we ate expesive dishes like black pepper crab, mozarella cheese wrapped scallop, everything is just so yummy! ;D mr gary even gave us A LOT of cookies for christmas gift.
buy christmas gift for the girls' secret santa! that will be a blast im sure. we'll exchange gifts but we wouldnt know who is that from haha. fun fun fun. then watch twilight with miss cheng and her friend dira. dira is fun!
today im going to city harvest church. so curious. its like singapore's hillsong. wonder how it will be like. and this eve will be their christmas celeb. and there'll be candlelight! aaw cant wait.
i still have to go to bras basah to buy a lot of books and to changi to buy tickets. i think im gonna buy after harvest. and christmas shopping too! but i think i'm able to hold the desire til im in indo! MANGDU HERE I COME. mom let me shop a lot (a lot, and i mean A LOOOOT) in mangdu okaaaaayy? ehehe. compare to singapore mangdu is heavenly cheap!
i think i'll upload less pics in my blog since facebook is easier, haha. so this will just be the stories i guess. and now i also make an expense list in my laptop to control my money. im have to be a smart shopper.
next week a lot of my friends will be going with their parents til new year. i hope im gonna do fine without them. think i'll go to Malay with andri and lola if they arent busy. and hwachong will make a christmas and countdown new year celebration! yeay. i love living in hwachong. but for new year eve i'll go to esplanade with the indons seniors. there wil also be orientation 2 in hwachong for 40 sec1 Malay scholars, and i've signed up to be the orientation group leader. its a good activities to kill time i guess. hope it'll be fun.
twilight
now this is the movie people have been waiting for. just watched it yest with hestia eliza bisma miss jillian and her friend, dira. the story, i dnt think i should tell, of course who wouldnt know right? overall, i'm not too satisfied with the movie. maybe thats because i've read the novel in advance. the novel is so so sooo much better! the director is quite an amateur. she couldnt inject much emotion to the movie as it is in the book. the movie was kind of dead, and the climax wasnt so clear. and the ending! such a spoiler. suddenly victoria appear and ruin the prom atmosphere. it was supposed to be a romantic movie but it was more tense and emotionless. the background music was bad. bella and ed's conversation was to cold and fake, and i hate the part when they were in the wood and they lie down and stare at each other and there was nothing. no smile no soft romantic music whatsoever. we were like, 'what!?'
talk much about the movie and the director. now the casts itself. idk its either the director can not direct or the actor can not act. robert pattinson's act is weird! esp. the part when they were in the bio lab and when they have a kind of field trip. bella said 'you didnt even said hi to me' then suddenly ed said coldly 'hi'. that is so lame! haha. and some parts are cheesy like 'you are exactly my brand of heroine' (?) ahaha.
concluding, i guess i feel that way simply coz i've read the book. when i consider it again i think i still want to watch the movie again. the story was great
and, oh! i love kirsten steward. she is a kind of girl which is not so pretty in terms of having a striking beauty but the more you see her the more you like her. that kind of girl you know. i love her hair in the movie, its like a good kind of messy hair. alice is stunningly beautiful. and fresh with the short hair. she look somewhat ordinary with her long hair. but rosalie is just wrong. her butt is too big *yeah i noticed ;p* and she isnt pretty like what is described in the book. but the guys are cute! unfortunately they were supposed to be paler in the movie. and jasper! if you watch the movie again, look at his expression! it was dissapointing, he could look much better than that. dira joked, he must've been asked to give his 'best constipated look'. hahaha.
well well, i guess thats all. check this out, just found it yest night --> www.instyle.com
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
take my yoke
”Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew11:28-30.
The first sentence is a comfort. But the rest is weird. In Sunday School I used to memorise this verse but only the first sentence. When i read the rest, i was like, what?
Rasanya aneh gitu, Tuhan bilangnya kan Dia mau kasih comfort, terus mau ilangin beban kita, tapi knapa endingnya kita disuru ambil yoke and burden?
Ternyata Tuhan mau kita taro beban hidup kita di Dia dan in turn, kita ambil beban nya Tuhan. Tuhan blg gini, “udah lah ngapain lo pusingin hidup lo dan segala macemnya, kasih aja sama gue ntar juga beres. Itu urusan gampang. Nih gantinya gw kasih lo tanggung jawab yg lebih penting, jangkau temen2 lo di hwachong, di bukit panjang, di dunia baru ini yg udah gw kasih ke elo” gitu deh intinya.
Terus gw buka encarta dictionary, dan yoke itu ada arti lain, which is “bond keeping people close”. Kalo di 1raja-raja19:19, elisa disuruh ambil 12 yoke of oxen, kalo di Indonesia-in kan 12 pasang, jadi yoke bisa jg jadi ‘pasangan’. Pas gw baca gw langsung ngebayangin kalo pas Tuhan bilang ‘take my yoke’ itu kayak Prince charming di film2 yg lagi propose, ‘maukah engkau berpasangan dengan ku?’ gitu hehehe. And that is just so cool!
Nah, soal pasangan, baca di korintus tuh tentang pasangan yg tidak seimbang gitu2. Tuhan bilang, ‘do not be unequally yoked with non-believers’. Jadi dalem berpasangan itu harus seimbang. Imagine, yoke yang di pake sama animals gitu, if one is higher than the other, nanti yokenya jomplang dong.
Jadi nih, demi kita *diulang* demi KITA, makanya Tuhan mau dateng ke dunia turun takhta. Have you ever wonder why? Smuanya tuh cuma supaya Dia bisa seimbang sama kita yg keciiiill,dan supaya Dia bisa berpasangan sama kita *padahal belom tentu kita nya mau juga!* wow.
Kenapa Tuhan mau turun dan jadi sama dengan manusia? Supaya kita sama Tuhan bisa jadi partner. If that wasnt based on His unconditional love for me, why else would He do that? Gw sampe wow-ing everytime i remember begitu berharga nya gw dimata Tuhan.
It’s like if there are 1000 steps dividing us and God, God has taken all that 999 steps, through all His sacrifices for us and everything, but as a loving God, He didnt force us to accept Him. Dia udah ngelakukin segitu nya supaya men and God can be reconciled, tapi dia butuh sesuatu dari kita. He needs our response. Kita tinggal bilang iya, dan terima Tuhan, and walk with Him each moment of our lives.
Dan gw udah berjanji taun 2009 ini gw mau jalan sama Tuhan. I want to take His yoke, renew my promise with Him and walk my 2009 to the fullest. Dan waktu kita jalan sama Tuhan, semakin hari anugrahnya makin bertambah, dan wonders and miracles will be something usual, something yg biasa, a part of life.
Apalagi gw udah hidup sendiri, which is berat banget, hidup tanpa keluarga and family love, pasti kerasanya lonely, apalagi kalo masa2 mellow dateng. Jadinya pas denger kotbah ini tuh seneng bgt, dikuatin banget, jadi ngerasa lagi kalo i’m not alone. I have something precious that the world dont have :)
The first sentence is a comfort. But the rest is weird. In Sunday School I used to memorise this verse but only the first sentence. When i read the rest, i was like, what?
Rasanya aneh gitu, Tuhan bilangnya kan Dia mau kasih comfort, terus mau ilangin beban kita, tapi knapa endingnya kita disuru ambil yoke and burden?
Ternyata Tuhan mau kita taro beban hidup kita di Dia dan in turn, kita ambil beban nya Tuhan. Tuhan blg gini, “udah lah ngapain lo pusingin hidup lo dan segala macemnya, kasih aja sama gue ntar juga beres. Itu urusan gampang. Nih gantinya gw kasih lo tanggung jawab yg lebih penting, jangkau temen2 lo di hwachong, di bukit panjang, di dunia baru ini yg udah gw kasih ke elo” gitu deh intinya.
Terus gw buka encarta dictionary, dan yoke itu ada arti lain, which is “bond keeping people close”. Kalo di 1raja-raja19:19, elisa disuruh ambil 12 yoke of oxen, kalo di Indonesia-in kan 12 pasang, jadi yoke bisa jg jadi ‘pasangan’. Pas gw baca gw langsung ngebayangin kalo pas Tuhan bilang ‘take my yoke’ itu kayak Prince charming di film2 yg lagi propose, ‘maukah engkau berpasangan dengan ku?’ gitu hehehe. And that is just so cool!
Nah, soal pasangan, baca di korintus tuh tentang pasangan yg tidak seimbang gitu2. Tuhan bilang, ‘do not be unequally yoked with non-believers’. Jadi dalem berpasangan itu harus seimbang. Imagine, yoke yang di pake sama animals gitu, if one is higher than the other, nanti yokenya jomplang dong.
Jadi nih, demi kita *diulang* demi KITA, makanya Tuhan mau dateng ke dunia turun takhta. Have you ever wonder why? Smuanya tuh cuma supaya Dia bisa seimbang sama kita yg keciiiill,dan supaya Dia bisa berpasangan sama kita *padahal belom tentu kita nya mau juga!* wow.
Kenapa Tuhan mau turun dan jadi sama dengan manusia? Supaya kita sama Tuhan bisa jadi partner. If that wasnt based on His unconditional love for me, why else would He do that? Gw sampe wow-ing everytime i remember begitu berharga nya gw dimata Tuhan.
It’s like if there are 1000 steps dividing us and God, God has taken all that 999 steps, through all His sacrifices for us and everything, but as a loving God, He didnt force us to accept Him. Dia udah ngelakukin segitu nya supaya men and God can be reconciled, tapi dia butuh sesuatu dari kita. He needs our response. Kita tinggal bilang iya, dan terima Tuhan, and walk with Him each moment of our lives.
Dan gw udah berjanji taun 2009 ini gw mau jalan sama Tuhan. I want to take His yoke, renew my promise with Him and walk my 2009 to the fullest. Dan waktu kita jalan sama Tuhan, semakin hari anugrahnya makin bertambah, dan wonders and miracles will be something usual, something yg biasa, a part of life.
Apalagi gw udah hidup sendiri, which is berat banget, hidup tanpa keluarga and family love, pasti kerasanya lonely, apalagi kalo masa2 mellow dateng. Jadinya pas denger kotbah ini tuh seneng bgt, dikuatin banget, jadi ngerasa lagi kalo i’m not alone. I have something precious that the world dont have :)
PEREK
tenangtenaaaangg, gw ga berubah jadi binal ato liar dan segala macem nya kok. haha. ini isinya jg bukan gmn2. cuma mau ngeklarifikasi! jadi harus di baca.
jadi ceritanya, scholars indo dari generasi ke generasi tuh pada manggil scholars cina dgn sebutan perek. haha bukan ngatain, mereka anaknya baik2 tp biar enak aja panggilnya pendek gitu. kan disini mereka disebut PRC, ga enk kepanjangan, dan kalo kita ngomongin pake bahasa indo kan susah PRC2 tetep ketawan mreka diomongin, jadinya kita kasih nama sebutan yg cm anak indo tau. pe er ce nya kita baca langsung jd perek gituuu. jd yaudah kebiasaan kita sebut nya perek tanpa maksud jelek haha. so dont get me wrong okay? ;)
jadi tuh gmn ya jelasin. contohnya nih, gw kan punya temen yg udah gw anggep kaya ade sendiri, gw panggil dia chibi, trs lama2 jd cibay. nah di indo kan gw manggil2 cibay ya cuek2 aja kan krn itu panggilan sayang. tp disini gw ngomong cibay dimarain! gara2 gw br tau artinya tuh memek hehe. jadi yaa sama aja. kaya di indo ngomong2 perek tuh kasar tp disini biasa aja ehehe.
jadi ceritanya, scholars indo dari generasi ke generasi tuh pada manggil scholars cina dgn sebutan perek. haha bukan ngatain, mereka anaknya baik2 tp biar enak aja panggilnya pendek gitu. kan disini mereka disebut PRC, ga enk kepanjangan, dan kalo kita ngomongin pake bahasa indo kan susah PRC2 tetep ketawan mreka diomongin, jadinya kita kasih nama sebutan yg cm anak indo tau. pe er ce nya kita baca langsung jd perek gituuu. jd yaudah kebiasaan kita sebut nya perek tanpa maksud jelek haha. so dont get me wrong okay? ;)
jadi tuh gmn ya jelasin. contohnya nih, gw kan punya temen yg udah gw anggep kaya ade sendiri, gw panggil dia chibi, trs lama2 jd cibay. nah di indo kan gw manggil2 cibay ya cuek2 aja kan krn itu panggilan sayang. tp disini gw ngomong cibay dimarain! gara2 gw br tau artinya tuh memek hehe. jadi yaa sama aja. kaya di indo ngomong2 perek tuh kasar tp disini biasa aja ehehe.
the day the earth stood still
JANGAN NONTON FILM INI. yah but if you live in indonesia where you can watch movie asal2an with only 15thou okelah. gw nonton di singapur pake student price 6.5dollar! which is 50ribuan. dan kita bener2 mikir banget nih nonton ga ya? dan ternyata rugi.critanya ttg mahluk yg ke bumi buat protect bumi dari manusia karna we're destroying the earth. the thing in a form of human played by keanu reeves said, 'if we destroy human, the earth will be saved. but if we let humans live, in the end both will die. there is no choice' gitu2 deh. inti filmnya sih bgs, too once again raise public concern to the condition of earth, dan awal cerita nya jg deg2an gitu. but it has such a horrible ending! sebel kan kalo film udh bgs tp ending nya jelek, such a spoiler! pas kita nonton tuh kan dipikir masih lanjut filmnya, eeeh tau2 udh credits. ugh. rugi pokoknya.
living by grace
aduh pokoknya gw tuh skrg bener2 live by grace deh! hidup disini tuh serius enak bngt. bner2 smua gratis. gw cm kluar duit buat beli sabun sgl macem, sama sisanya have fun. paint the town red! ;)
tiap malem kan gw email nyokap, dan otomatis gw jd kayak reflect back on my day gitu kan, dan disetiap step yg gw ambil tuh selalu ada aja jalan Tuhan yg gw ga pernah sampe mikir Tuhan bakal direct gw that detail gitu. dan bener2 Tuhan tuh kasih gw kemudahan gila2an, sampe gw amaze sendiri, Tuhan kok bs sih seenak ini? emg sih ada jg hardtimes nya tp kalo gw sih prefer liat sisi positif nya which is uncountable!
tp gw sempet takut loh, masa kan Thn kan adil, trs gw suka mikir we are all given the same amount of happiness and sadness. nah gw mikir kayaknya hidup gw ga pernah yg susah2 bngt gmn gitu, ntar kalo jatah happiness gw abis gmn? masa sisa hidup gw jadi sedih2 terus? haha. tp that was just a silly thought, dan skrg i know the answer.
we are all indeed given the same amount of happiness and sadness *bner kan ya, Thn kan adil kan ya?* haha, dan eventhough beda, God knows us best and He has different ways of making us mature, jadi ya percaya aja deh sama Thn. dan sbnernya setelah gw pkir2, hidup gw tuh ga enak2 terus jg kok! biarpun org liat 'aduh enak bgt sih jadi nia' tp hidup gw bnyk susah nya jg kok! haha. cm yg bikin beda ini nih: mindset and perspective.if we choose to look on the positive side, ternyata kan hidup kita seru2 trus berjalan nya, dan seolah2 sedih2 nya cm apa sih yg cepet berlalu gt hehe. jadi kalo gw pikir2 sbenernya ya hidup gw seru karna i choose to think of it that way. aduh gitu deh pokoknya kalo gw jadi ribet muter2 maaf yaa hahaha
okay, hari ini gw lg bodo amat sm structure blog gw dan language dan sgl macem, gw lg bosen bkin yg gt2 gw pgn blurt out aja. mngkn gara2 gw udh enek sama bridging course kali ya hahaha. nah balik ke live by grace..
gilee. gw tuh ya bersyukur bgt tiba2 buat tmn2 gw anak2 indo ber10 di hwachong! kita friendship nya emg ga yg gmn2 bgt, tp wajarlah kan bru knal 1bln, tp gw bersyukur anak2nya asik2 dan ga ada yg nyebelin gmn gt, smuanya baik2. Thn jawab doa gw! dan buat gw masuk hostelnya hwachong tuh God's favor bgt, ini tuh trnyta hostel plg bgs se-asia pacific! dan daerah paling tgg di sgpr jd ga panas, dan sekolahnya elit jd sgala fasilitas ada. bayangin 'rumah' gw ada fitness center, kolam renang, sgl mcm lapangan, olympic size running track, ajegile. trs buat hidup d sgpr jg wow bgt, lo tinggal isi EZlink lo, dan pergi kmn2 tinggal tap kartu ke mesin dan olalaaaa lo bisa muter2 singapur gmpang bgt. kalo lg bokek ga bs bli makan, tnggal pulang ke hostel ada makan gratis *di hostel lain makan mesti daftar aduh ribet* dan dari smua segi, ukuran kamar, laundry service, temen2nya, hwachng tuh paling asik! dan stiap gw banding2in, aduh yg Thn kasih ke gw is the best deh! *ga tau sih ya, mngkn ada ga enk nya jg, tp gw mau ngucap syukur buat smua yg enak2nya*
dan stelah gw pikir2, what do i have to be proud of? NOTHING. smua bukan hebat nya gw, bukan prestasti gw. tapi kerja Tuhan dlm hidup gw. dan stlh dapet smua ini, gw cm blg, smua yg Thn janjiin tuh bener deh! ga ada yg boong. dan bahkan lbih jauuuuuh lebih dari yg kita bs bayangin. smua ayat2 tuh bener.
'no eyes has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived, all God has prepared for those who love Him' terus 'delight in me and i will give you the desires of your heart' terus 'blessed is those who find great delight in my command' trs 'my plan is to prosper you and not to harm you, a plan to give you hope and future' trs apa lagi yaa? banyak bgt pkknya! waktu kita afalin tuh ayat2 dan jd pedoman hidup, they really come true! dan skrg gw bener2 in awe deh, bner2 God is real in my life.
waktu sblm gw k sgpr, kita scholars ber5 di nubuatin sama 1pendeta gt, gw inget kayaknya nubuat gw yg paling simpel, and i was a bit dissapointed - 'you will be closer to God'. i was like, thats it? not the best students not whatsoever yg keren2 gitu? dan skrg gw nyadar gw jahat bgt wktu itu dan pikiran gw childish bgt. skrg gw bersyukur bgt sm nubuatan itu. dan gw tau itu yg gw mau banget2an more than anything else.
nyokap gw blg, 'nubuatan buat kamu itu ....cukup buat mama....krn buat apa sekolah jauh2 dan sekolah tinggi ...kalau akhirnya jauh dr Tuhan ....mama mau semua berkat Tuhan yg kita nikmati ....justru membawa kita makin dekat dg sang pemberi berkat...'
gitu deh pokoknya. endingnya gantung gpp ya. pkknya maksud gw gitu. haha
tiap malem kan gw email nyokap, dan otomatis gw jd kayak reflect back on my day gitu kan, dan disetiap step yg gw ambil tuh selalu ada aja jalan Tuhan yg gw ga pernah sampe mikir Tuhan bakal direct gw that detail gitu. dan bener2 Tuhan tuh kasih gw kemudahan gila2an, sampe gw amaze sendiri, Tuhan kok bs sih seenak ini? emg sih ada jg hardtimes nya tp kalo gw sih prefer liat sisi positif nya which is uncountable!
tp gw sempet takut loh, masa kan Thn kan adil, trs gw suka mikir we are all given the same amount of happiness and sadness. nah gw mikir kayaknya hidup gw ga pernah yg susah2 bngt gmn gitu, ntar kalo jatah happiness gw abis gmn? masa sisa hidup gw jadi sedih2 terus? haha. tp that was just a silly thought, dan skrg i know the answer.
we are all indeed given the same amount of happiness and sadness *bner kan ya, Thn kan adil kan ya?* haha, dan eventhough beda, God knows us best and He has different ways of making us mature, jadi ya percaya aja deh sama Thn. dan sbnernya setelah gw pkir2, hidup gw tuh ga enak2 terus jg kok! biarpun org liat 'aduh enak bgt sih jadi nia' tp hidup gw bnyk susah nya jg kok! haha. cm yg bikin beda ini nih: mindset and perspective.if we choose to look on the positive side, ternyata kan hidup kita seru2 trus berjalan nya, dan seolah2 sedih2 nya cm apa sih yg cepet berlalu gt hehe. jadi kalo gw pikir2 sbenernya ya hidup gw seru karna i choose to think of it that way. aduh gitu deh pokoknya kalo gw jadi ribet muter2 maaf yaa hahaha
okay, hari ini gw lg bodo amat sm structure blog gw dan language dan sgl macem, gw lg bosen bkin yg gt2 gw pgn blurt out aja. mngkn gara2 gw udh enek sama bridging course kali ya hahaha. nah balik ke live by grace..
gilee. gw tuh ya bersyukur bgt tiba2 buat tmn2 gw anak2 indo ber10 di hwachong! kita friendship nya emg ga yg gmn2 bgt, tp wajarlah kan bru knal 1bln, tp gw bersyukur anak2nya asik2 dan ga ada yg nyebelin gmn gt, smuanya baik2. Thn jawab doa gw! dan buat gw masuk hostelnya hwachong tuh God's favor bgt, ini tuh trnyta hostel plg bgs se-asia pacific! dan daerah paling tgg di sgpr jd ga panas, dan sekolahnya elit jd sgala fasilitas ada. bayangin 'rumah' gw ada fitness center, kolam renang, sgl mcm lapangan, olympic size running track, ajegile. trs buat hidup d sgpr jg wow bgt, lo tinggal isi EZlink lo, dan pergi kmn2 tinggal tap kartu ke mesin dan olalaaaa lo bisa muter2 singapur gmpang bgt. kalo lg bokek ga bs bli makan, tnggal pulang ke hostel ada makan gratis *di hostel lain makan mesti daftar aduh ribet* dan dari smua segi, ukuran kamar, laundry service, temen2nya, hwachng tuh paling asik! dan stiap gw banding2in, aduh yg Thn kasih ke gw is the best deh! *ga tau sih ya, mngkn ada ga enk nya jg, tp gw mau ngucap syukur buat smua yg enak2nya*
dan stelah gw pikir2, what do i have to be proud of? NOTHING. smua bukan hebat nya gw, bukan prestasti gw. tapi kerja Tuhan dlm hidup gw. dan stlh dapet smua ini, gw cm blg, smua yg Thn janjiin tuh bener deh! ga ada yg boong. dan bahkan lbih jauuuuuh lebih dari yg kita bs bayangin. smua ayat2 tuh bener.
'no eyes has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived, all God has prepared for those who love Him' terus 'delight in me and i will give you the desires of your heart' terus 'blessed is those who find great delight in my command' trs 'my plan is to prosper you and not to harm you, a plan to give you hope and future' trs apa lagi yaa? banyak bgt pkknya! waktu kita afalin tuh ayat2 dan jd pedoman hidup, they really come true! dan skrg gw bener2 in awe deh, bner2 God is real in my life.
waktu sblm gw k sgpr, kita scholars ber5 di nubuatin sama 1pendeta gt, gw inget kayaknya nubuat gw yg paling simpel, and i was a bit dissapointed - 'you will be closer to God'. i was like, thats it? not the best students not whatsoever yg keren2 gitu? dan skrg gw nyadar gw jahat bgt wktu itu dan pikiran gw childish bgt. skrg gw bersyukur bgt sm nubuatan itu. dan gw tau itu yg gw mau banget2an more than anything else.
nyokap gw blg, 'nubuatan buat kamu itu ....cukup buat mama....krn buat apa sekolah jauh2 dan sekolah tinggi ...kalau akhirnya jauh dr Tuhan ....mama mau semua berkat Tuhan yg kita nikmati ....justru membawa kita makin dekat dg sang pemberi berkat...'
gitu deh pokoknya. endingnya gantung gpp ya. pkknya maksud gw gitu. haha
i'm back!
just a short notice. well, depends on how my fingers could handle it, kalo ga keterusan this will just be a short notice.
i'm back! and this blog is still alive.
hahaha. parah parah rasanya udah lama ga update blog. tiap ada apa2 yg mau gw post tuh slalu gw catet tp gak gw tulis2, ujung2nya jadi numpuk. dan tiap ada yg baru ga lgsg gw tulis tp gw pikir mending catet dulu dan tulis yg lama, jd in a chronological order gt. yeh kalo gt trus sih mandek aja nih blog gw.
jadi skrg gw bodoin yg lama2 deh.
today! hmm hmm.
td pagi gw ke bank masukin cheque $240. wowowoo bsok gw kaya mendadak! gw pikir ribet ternyata gampang bgt tinggal isi acc no, hp no, sm nama trus masukin ke box deh. dan besoknya katanya lgsg masuk duitnya. yes! cashless no more. which also means gw harus traktir si lola sama andri hahaha.
siangnya kita ke rumah ms cheng! she is super nice! she showed us her pic album, and she was so geeky before! she changed a lot - now is sweet and cute, and she has a good personality, i somehow sense it, hehe. dia baik banget, kita di beliin snack and drinks buanyaaakk, and she ordered pizza and kfc for us!
then we talked about group1and2 in bridging course. yg grup2 tuh anak2 cina yg kita panggil perek. mreka ga diundang kasian haha ;p aneh2 aja deh mreka, seru ngomonginnya. ada bnyk crita2 ga penting yg seru
1. hesti mau beli 1set sragam lagi jd ada 4. roommate nya yg perek nanya
perek: oh you're going to buy another set of uniform?
hesti: yeah, so it will be easier for me to wash it
perek: oh thats a good idea! i havent wash my uniform
and hesti was like, what!? -.-
2. kita kan nyadar perek ga pernah mandi pagi, soalnya kalo pagi yg mandi cm cewek indo ber5. trus pas ada drama mreka tulis daily activities mreka, pertama 'brush your teeth' kedua 'get dress' wow. mreka bneran ga mandi. dan roommate nya hesti nanya ke hesti, why do you bath every morning? *buset hesti lgsg bingung mau jawab apa haha
3. pagi2 pas gw sama eliza udah slese mandi, perek2 kan masih tidur. trus kita bngung, buset enk amat tdur nya molor, kpn siap2nya nih? tau2 1perek bangun, buka selimut, and guess what? pas selimutnya dibuka, ternyata dia udh pake uniform!
4. pas study time, smua udh in their position, tau2 2 cowo perek masuk, dan mreka pake sragam! pdhl itu malem2 jam8 kan, dan kita masih libur, bsoknya baru bridging di skolah. kita pd bingung, buset nih ngapain. pas ditanya jwbn nya, 'i dont want to wash another clothes' irit amaaatt
5. ada lg si jiangwei, dia di lemari cuma ada 1setelan suit and shirt for formal occasion, uniforms, 1 white tee for sleep, and 4 ballack jerseys! tiap hari pake baju ballack. kalo ga blue, white, short sleeve, long sleeve. parah. pas ditanya jawabnya, 'i want to wear this everyday because when school starts i have to wear uniform' pdhl sih ga ada bju lain haha
6. ada perek yg kocak krn dodol agak autis namanya bandot *disamarkan* haha. dia gosipnya suka sm merah *disamarkan lagi*, tp ada cowok malay nyebelin namanya inem *disamarkan juga* suka dketin tu cewe.pernah suatu kali si bandot lg brg merah trs inem dateng, lgsg jelek2in si bandot trs tau2 si inem belai rambut nya merah! buat perek kan itu hal ga biasa. trs si bandot crt sama kita2 indons katanya *baca dgn nada liubin, soalnya emg persis bgt cr ngomongnya* 'oh my god, i dont want to look at them doing that so i excused myself, i said im sorry i need to take something and i run, but i just find something better to say! i think i should say, OH SHIT, YOU SHOULD WASH YOUR HAIR!' hahahahha itu lucu bgt kalo dibaca nada liubin
aduh pkknya hdup bersama perek2 sangat menghibur deh.
i'm back! and this blog is still alive.
hahaha. parah parah rasanya udah lama ga update blog. tiap ada apa2 yg mau gw post tuh slalu gw catet tp gak gw tulis2, ujung2nya jadi numpuk. dan tiap ada yg baru ga lgsg gw tulis tp gw pikir mending catet dulu dan tulis yg lama, jd in a chronological order gt. yeh kalo gt trus sih mandek aja nih blog gw.
jadi skrg gw bodoin yg lama2 deh.
today! hmm hmm.
td pagi gw ke bank masukin cheque $240. wowowoo bsok gw kaya mendadak! gw pikir ribet ternyata gampang bgt tinggal isi acc no, hp no, sm nama trus masukin ke box deh. dan besoknya katanya lgsg masuk duitnya. yes! cashless no more. which also means gw harus traktir si lola sama andri hahaha.
siangnya kita ke rumah ms cheng! she is super nice! she showed us her pic album, and she was so geeky before! she changed a lot - now is sweet and cute, and she has a good personality, i somehow sense it, hehe. dia baik banget, kita di beliin snack and drinks buanyaaakk, and she ordered pizza and kfc for us!
then we talked about group1and2 in bridging course. yg grup2 tuh anak2 cina yg kita panggil perek. mreka ga diundang kasian haha ;p aneh2 aja deh mreka, seru ngomonginnya. ada bnyk crita2 ga penting yg seru
1. hesti mau beli 1set sragam lagi jd ada 4. roommate nya yg perek nanya
perek: oh you're going to buy another set of uniform?
hesti: yeah, so it will be easier for me to wash it
perek: oh thats a good idea! i havent wash my uniform
and hesti was like, what!? -.-
2. kita kan nyadar perek ga pernah mandi pagi, soalnya kalo pagi yg mandi cm cewek indo ber5. trus pas ada drama mreka tulis daily activities mreka, pertama 'brush your teeth' kedua 'get dress' wow. mreka bneran ga mandi. dan roommate nya hesti nanya ke hesti, why do you bath every morning? *buset hesti lgsg bingung mau jawab apa haha
3. pagi2 pas gw sama eliza udah slese mandi, perek2 kan masih tidur. trus kita bngung, buset enk amat tdur nya molor, kpn siap2nya nih? tau2 1perek bangun, buka selimut, and guess what? pas selimutnya dibuka, ternyata dia udh pake uniform!
4. pas study time, smua udh in their position, tau2 2 cowo perek masuk, dan mreka pake sragam! pdhl itu malem2 jam8 kan, dan kita masih libur, bsoknya baru bridging di skolah. kita pd bingung, buset nih ngapain. pas ditanya jwbn nya, 'i dont want to wash another clothes' irit amaaatt
5. ada lg si jiangwei, dia di lemari cuma ada 1setelan suit and shirt for formal occasion, uniforms, 1 white tee for sleep, and 4 ballack jerseys! tiap hari pake baju ballack. kalo ga blue, white, short sleeve, long sleeve. parah. pas ditanya jawabnya, 'i want to wear this everyday because when school starts i have to wear uniform' pdhl sih ga ada bju lain haha
6. ada perek yg kocak krn dodol agak autis namanya bandot *disamarkan* haha. dia gosipnya suka sm merah *disamarkan lagi*, tp ada cowok malay nyebelin namanya inem *disamarkan juga* suka dketin tu cewe.pernah suatu kali si bandot lg brg merah trs inem dateng, lgsg jelek2in si bandot trs tau2 si inem belai rambut nya merah! buat perek kan itu hal ga biasa. trs si bandot crt sama kita2 indons katanya *baca dgn nada liubin, soalnya emg persis bgt cr ngomongnya* 'oh my god, i dont want to look at them doing that so i excused myself, i said im sorry i need to take something and i run, but i just find something better to say! i think i should say, OH SHIT, YOU SHOULD WASH YOUR HAIR!' hahahahha itu lucu bgt kalo dibaca nada liubin
aduh pkknya hdup bersama perek2 sangat menghibur deh.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Tuhan punya rencana
gw sngaja post ini blog buat smuanya yg mungkin ngalamin yg sama kayak gw. banyak sih temen2 yg msh tinggal sama kluarga nya, tp applicable juga kalo lo lg ngalamin masalah yg beraaaatt banget dan lo bner2 ga bisa ngrasain Thn, rasanya hidup tuh cuma pass by gitu aja, kurang bermakna, dan lo ngrasa kaya robot tnpa perasaan cuma nglakuin rutinitas gitu aja. awal2 gw di singapur jg gtu, ga bermasalah gimana sih, tp bnyk lah perubahan nya, rasanya kosong tanpa tmen2 yg slalu sm gw, dan kadang gw ngrasa kaya i'm losing my old self. kadang gw mikir apa gw salah ada disini, tp udh lama gw tau smua aneh2 yg gw rasain emg part of adapting aja. dan dgn smua yg gw tinggalin di indo gw tau bakal worth it kok in the end. jd harusnya gw ngucap syukur banget. dan emg kita jg ga blh trus2 ada di comfort zone jg kan. ternyata ngelakuin nya susah ya, baru kerasa haha. ngomongnya sih enak. email nyokap gw ni nguatin bgt dan sampe bikin gw nangis. and whenever you feel the same way i felt, remember that all these great people in the bible had felt it too. tulis deh kisah2nya gitu, dan trahirnya tulis nama lo dan rencana Thn di depan yg Dia janjiin buat lo. like what my mom did. nguatin banget.
"BAGAIMANA YUSUF, DI JUAL JADI BUDAK DI MESIR, SENDIRIAN, TAPI YUSUF BERTAHAN DAN TETAP BISA TERUS BERGAUL DENGAN TUHAN DAN YUSUF MERAIH SUKSES DAN MENGUKIR SEJARAH BESAR. SAMA JUGA DENGAN NEHEMIA, DANIEL DKK, MRK ANAK2 MUDA YG MENGUKIR SEJARAH, KRN DI PERANTAUAN DI DEWASAKAN.
YG MENARIK BANYAK ORANG YG DIPAKAI TUHAN SETELAH MERANTAU. MUSA SETELAH MERANTAU 40 TH DIPANGGIL TUHAN, ABRAHAM DIPANGGIL KELUAR DR KELUARGANYA, YUSUF DIPAKSA MERANTAU DIJUAL JADI BUDAK OLEH KAKAKNYA, YAKUB TERPAKSA MERATAU KRN MAU DIBUNUH ESSAY, DANIEL DKK 4 PEMUDA YG MERANTAU KE BABEL. NEHEMIA JG SAMA DST DST AKAN ADA DAFTAR PUAAAANJANG ORNG YG DIPAKAI TUHAN SETELAH DIPAKSA MERANTAU.
JADI KAMU PASSSSSTI AKAN MJD JAUH LEBIH DEWASA DGN MERANTAU. SEBELUM MERANTAU SJ SUDAH DEWASA, TTP DGN MERANTAU AKAN BENAR2 BERGANTUNG DGN TUHAN, BUKAN MAMA BUKAN YG LAIN. JG MJD MANDIRI.
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA BUAT MUSA, SAAT ITU IA 40 TAHUN, PUNYA VISI BUAT BANGSA, RELA MENINGGALKAN ISTANA BUAT BANGSANYA. DIA TERPANGGIL, TETAPI TUHAN BELUM MEMANGGIL, IA KURANG DEWASA.... LALU DIJINKAN MERANTAU KE MIDIAN 40 TH KEMUDIAN, TUHAN PANGGIL DIA. 40 TAHUN DI NEGRI ASING, SENDIRIAN. SEOLAH TUHAN TDAK MENDENGAR, SEOLAH TUHAN LUPA RENCANA-NYA. TAPI TERBUKTI TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA BUAT YUSUF, DIA BERI VISI DAN MIMPI-2, HANYA DIA ANAK KESAYANGAN PAPA MAMA, DIA ANAK MANJA, DIA KURANG DEWASA.... TUHAN PAKSA DIA MERANTAU JAUH KE MESIR... SENDIRIAN...BAHKAN MASUK PENJARA.... SEOLAH TUHAN LUPA RENCANANYA... YUSUF MUNGKIN BERPIKIR, APA SAYA TIDAK SALAH ADA DI PENJARA... DISANA IA SEMAKIN TAJAM HIKMATNYA DAN DIPAKAI TUHAN LUAR BIASA
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA..... JUGA BUAT NATHANIA CRHISTY, SEORANG MUDA DARI BINTARO.... ANAK MAMA....
MASIH INGAT BUKU RAJAWALI... BAB TENTANG KESENDIRIAN....???
TUHAN IJINKAN KESENDIRIAN.... KRN TUHAN MAU SENDIRIAN DENGAN KITA..... DALAM KEINTIMAN YG LEBIH ERAT.....
DIA PUNYA RENCANA"
"BAGAIMANA YUSUF, DI JUAL JADI BUDAK DI MESIR, SENDIRIAN, TAPI YUSUF BERTAHAN DAN TETAP BISA TERUS BERGAUL DENGAN TUHAN DAN YUSUF MERAIH SUKSES DAN MENGUKIR SEJARAH BESAR. SAMA JUGA DENGAN NEHEMIA, DANIEL DKK, MRK ANAK2 MUDA YG MENGUKIR SEJARAH, KRN DI PERANTAUAN DI DEWASAKAN.
YG MENARIK BANYAK ORANG YG DIPAKAI TUHAN SETELAH MERANTAU. MUSA SETELAH MERANTAU 40 TH DIPANGGIL TUHAN, ABRAHAM DIPANGGIL KELUAR DR KELUARGANYA, YUSUF DIPAKSA MERANTAU DIJUAL JADI BUDAK OLEH KAKAKNYA, YAKUB TERPAKSA MERATAU KRN MAU DIBUNUH ESSAY, DANIEL DKK 4 PEMUDA YG MERANTAU KE BABEL. NEHEMIA JG SAMA DST DST AKAN ADA DAFTAR PUAAAANJANG ORNG YG DIPAKAI TUHAN SETELAH DIPAKSA MERANTAU.
JADI KAMU PASSSSSTI AKAN MJD JAUH LEBIH DEWASA DGN MERANTAU. SEBELUM MERANTAU SJ SUDAH DEWASA, TTP DGN MERANTAU AKAN BENAR2 BERGANTUNG DGN TUHAN, BUKAN MAMA BUKAN YG LAIN. JG MJD MANDIRI.
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA BUAT MUSA, SAAT ITU IA 40 TAHUN, PUNYA VISI BUAT BANGSA, RELA MENINGGALKAN ISTANA BUAT BANGSANYA. DIA TERPANGGIL, TETAPI TUHAN BELUM MEMANGGIL, IA KURANG DEWASA.... LALU DIJINKAN MERANTAU KE MIDIAN 40 TH KEMUDIAN, TUHAN PANGGIL DIA. 40 TAHUN DI NEGRI ASING, SENDIRIAN. SEOLAH TUHAN TDAK MENDENGAR, SEOLAH TUHAN LUPA RENCANA-NYA. TAPI TERBUKTI TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA BUAT YUSUF, DIA BERI VISI DAN MIMPI-2, HANYA DIA ANAK KESAYANGAN PAPA MAMA, DIA ANAK MANJA, DIA KURANG DEWASA.... TUHAN PAKSA DIA MERANTAU JAUH KE MESIR... SENDIRIAN...BAHKAN MASUK PENJARA.... SEOLAH TUHAN LUPA RENCANANYA... YUSUF MUNGKIN BERPIKIR, APA SAYA TIDAK SALAH ADA DI PENJARA... DISANA IA SEMAKIN TAJAM HIKMATNYA DAN DIPAKAI TUHAN LUAR BIASA
TUHAN PUNYA RENCANA..... JUGA BUAT NATHANIA CRHISTY, SEORANG MUDA DARI BINTARO.... ANAK MAMA....
MASIH INGAT BUKU RAJAWALI... BAB TENTANG KESENDIRIAN....???
TUHAN IJINKAN KESENDIRIAN.... KRN TUHAN MAU SENDIRIAN DENGAN KITA..... DALAM KEINTIMAN YG LEBIH ERAT.....
DIA PUNYA RENCANA"
A (long) Walk to Remember
30.11.2008
I got lost in Orchard. For 3 hours. It was a completely grueling day. Perhaps the most wearying day of my life in Singapore. This is how it began.
Today i went to Little India and Science centre. I was wearing my new roman sandal and it felt slightly uncomfortable, i got footsore and was really exhausted. At 5pm i was supposed to attend church. I reached Hwa Chong at exactly 5pm and was actually considering wether or not i should go to church. I was friggin’ tired and wished to sleep. Yet i took my bible and went anyway. We (clara and I) were late already and it even took us 30 minutes to wait for the bus! It was so rare that the bus came so late.
There are 2 bus to Orchard – 171 and 174. We usually use the 171 but this time it was 174. Apparently they take different route and we wait for the usual bus stop but we didnt see it until the end of Orchard road! We decided to stop and find a way to Orchard Tower. We walked straight but we couldnt spot that building. Fine, i thought, since the beginning i was sure i was not meant to go to church today, and now i was even more convinced, so i called Lolla and told her we’d wait for her til the service ended and went out for dinner and went to church tomorrow again. Lolla suggested that i went home instead and took a rest. So we struggle to find our way back, so we searched for the nearest MRT station. Thankfully there was a one-dollar ice cream stall, we each bought one, that kinda made up our day a bit.
About 15minutes later, we found the MRT station, top up our EZ link for a while and on the way up when i was about to sms Ms Smahon to excuse ourselves from lesson the next day in order to go to church, suddenly my handphone switched off by itself! Geez. What is wrong with today! We thought God didnt let us go to church, but that was weird, why would He wanted that?
Okay, i thought, at least i found this way out familiar, this must be right, an end to our draining day. Guess what, it turned out to be familiar because i was once lost in that very same place! So yeah, we were lost – again.
Then we walked for another 5minutes, and found a bus stop. Yes! This is the end, we exclaimed. But it wasnt like what we thought it would. The bus was heading to the opposite direction! So it’s either we took the bus, made a detour and spent more money, or we cross the road and that’s it. We looked across and, you know what, it was a one-way street! We didnt want to spend more money so we try to find another bus stop purely based on our instict.
We thought we knew the direction, but we didnt. We end up on an unknown road and suddenly it wasnt Orchard Road anymore! Instead, it was like trees and bushes everywhere! We didnt want to take the risk and we could only wonder, how stupid we were. At first we were like, ‘oh! We got lost. So fun! it’s an adventure! We’re dora the explorer.’ Blah blah blah. But as time passed by and we were still lost, it wasnt fun anymore. I started to get irritated, i mean, hey, it’s Singapore, a well-developed and small country, how could i get lost here? And for 3 hours?
That time, i just randomly blurted, ‘Goooooodd, pleaseee send Your angels!’. Suddenly it strucked me. Hard. I was like, ‘yeah, how can i not realize? I have a great big God, and an army of angels surround me, and where have i been? Wandering for 3hours and on my own (well, with Clara actually) but hey, why didnt i asked for His help?’
Then i told Clara, ‘La, i think i know why, we didnt pray!’ and she was like, oh yeah you’re right. Then we started to pray. Suddenly i felt thankful God let us had this so-called unlucky day. There was a lesson than needed to be retold. Cliche as it may sound, about surrendering everything to God, but it somehow strucked us deep.
But it was just halfway of the story! It was irritating, at some point we were like so sure of the way we took and the next moment we found we were lost, again, for the oh-so-many times. From that full-of-bushes street, we went back to MRT station, again, for the third time (i kinda shorten my story coz i thought you would be irritated by reading such a long story) then we took the MRT to Newton.
The bad luck still followed. The bus didnt arrive until 15minutes later. It was already 7.30pm. we had missed our dinner period. Great, i’m going to waste another money for dinner tonight, i grumped. So we consider our alternatives. It was either eat in island creamery area, adam road hawker centre, or coronation plaza.
The bus stop turned out to be quite far from island creamery and adam road and i just couldnt walk anymore. Well then, no other choice but to eat in coronation plaza. I sighed, i had imagined eating es khacang and oyster omelette.
Next bus stop. We didnt got off because we thought coronation plaza was on the next stop. We were wrong. I felt like shouting! Gosh, what’s wrong with this day! Where am i gonna eat now? Okay, i still have some snack and i could still buy one charsiewpao and tetrapak juice in Hwa Chong.
There are 3 bus stops along Hwa Chong because the premises is just SO HUGE. Been here for 3 weeks and never had i got off at the wrong stop. But this day, this very particular day, i got off at the wrong stop! I ponder deeply what mistakes have i made to deserve such a day. And finally, i have to walk. It’s like from my house in Indo to Tops/Giant. That is far! Especially when i had no more energy.
Finally we reached Hwa Chong, but we still had to walk inside. Well, at least we wouldnt get lost again this time, or would we? That would just be plain stupid. Haha.
Looking at the bright side, there was a lesson learnt, and stars in the sky! All this time we hadnt seen a single star in the empty sky! Now there were, and among them, there two brightest stars giving such radiant glow. That’s our stars, we claimed. Hehe.
I kind of thought, ‘kita kayak orang majus aja, pas natal lagi, nyari Tuhan (pergi ke gereja) ga tau arah. Dan pas malem2, penunjuk nya bintang paling terang di langit. Tapi kok bintang nya ada dua? Dan kok malah ujung2nya bintang nya diatas Hwa Chong?’
Then i simply conclude, ‘yaudahlah, berarti bagus Tuhan Yesus ada di Hwa Chong.’ and that brightened my gloomy day! Hahaha. Seru juga hari ini.
I got lost in Orchard. For 3 hours. It was a completely grueling day. Perhaps the most wearying day of my life in Singapore. This is how it began.
Today i went to Little India and Science centre. I was wearing my new roman sandal and it felt slightly uncomfortable, i got footsore and was really exhausted. At 5pm i was supposed to attend church. I reached Hwa Chong at exactly 5pm and was actually considering wether or not i should go to church. I was friggin’ tired and wished to sleep. Yet i took my bible and went anyway. We (clara and I) were late already and it even took us 30 minutes to wait for the bus! It was so rare that the bus came so late.
There are 2 bus to Orchard – 171 and 174. We usually use the 171 but this time it was 174. Apparently they take different route and we wait for the usual bus stop but we didnt see it until the end of Orchard road! We decided to stop and find a way to Orchard Tower. We walked straight but we couldnt spot that building. Fine, i thought, since the beginning i was sure i was not meant to go to church today, and now i was even more convinced, so i called Lolla and told her we’d wait for her til the service ended and went out for dinner and went to church tomorrow again. Lolla suggested that i went home instead and took a rest. So we struggle to find our way back, so we searched for the nearest MRT station. Thankfully there was a one-dollar ice cream stall, we each bought one, that kinda made up our day a bit.
About 15minutes later, we found the MRT station, top up our EZ link for a while and on the way up when i was about to sms Ms Smahon to excuse ourselves from lesson the next day in order to go to church, suddenly my handphone switched off by itself! Geez. What is wrong with today! We thought God didnt let us go to church, but that was weird, why would He wanted that?
Okay, i thought, at least i found this way out familiar, this must be right, an end to our draining day. Guess what, it turned out to be familiar because i was once lost in that very same place! So yeah, we were lost – again.
Then we walked for another 5minutes, and found a bus stop. Yes! This is the end, we exclaimed. But it wasnt like what we thought it would. The bus was heading to the opposite direction! So it’s either we took the bus, made a detour and spent more money, or we cross the road and that’s it. We looked across and, you know what, it was a one-way street! We didnt want to spend more money so we try to find another bus stop purely based on our instict.
We thought we knew the direction, but we didnt. We end up on an unknown road and suddenly it wasnt Orchard Road anymore! Instead, it was like trees and bushes everywhere! We didnt want to take the risk and we could only wonder, how stupid we were. At first we were like, ‘oh! We got lost. So fun! it’s an adventure! We’re dora the explorer.’ Blah blah blah. But as time passed by and we were still lost, it wasnt fun anymore. I started to get irritated, i mean, hey, it’s Singapore, a well-developed and small country, how could i get lost here? And for 3 hours?
That time, i just randomly blurted, ‘Goooooodd, pleaseee send Your angels!’. Suddenly it strucked me. Hard. I was like, ‘yeah, how can i not realize? I have a great big God, and an army of angels surround me, and where have i been? Wandering for 3hours and on my own (well, with Clara actually) but hey, why didnt i asked for His help?’
Then i told Clara, ‘La, i think i know why, we didnt pray!’ and she was like, oh yeah you’re right. Then we started to pray. Suddenly i felt thankful God let us had this so-called unlucky day. There was a lesson than needed to be retold. Cliche as it may sound, about surrendering everything to God, but it somehow strucked us deep.
But it was just halfway of the story! It was irritating, at some point we were like so sure of the way we took and the next moment we found we were lost, again, for the oh-so-many times. From that full-of-bushes street, we went back to MRT station, again, for the third time (i kinda shorten my story coz i thought you would be irritated by reading such a long story) then we took the MRT to Newton.
The bad luck still followed. The bus didnt arrive until 15minutes later. It was already 7.30pm. we had missed our dinner period. Great, i’m going to waste another money for dinner tonight, i grumped. So we consider our alternatives. It was either eat in island creamery area, adam road hawker centre, or coronation plaza.
The bus stop turned out to be quite far from island creamery and adam road and i just couldnt walk anymore. Well then, no other choice but to eat in coronation plaza. I sighed, i had imagined eating es khacang and oyster omelette.
Next bus stop. We didnt got off because we thought coronation plaza was on the next stop. We were wrong. I felt like shouting! Gosh, what’s wrong with this day! Where am i gonna eat now? Okay, i still have some snack and i could still buy one charsiewpao and tetrapak juice in Hwa Chong.
There are 3 bus stops along Hwa Chong because the premises is just SO HUGE. Been here for 3 weeks and never had i got off at the wrong stop. But this day, this very particular day, i got off at the wrong stop! I ponder deeply what mistakes have i made to deserve such a day. And finally, i have to walk. It’s like from my house in Indo to Tops/Giant. That is far! Especially when i had no more energy.
Finally we reached Hwa Chong, but we still had to walk inside. Well, at least we wouldnt get lost again this time, or would we? That would just be plain stupid. Haha.
Looking at the bright side, there was a lesson learnt, and stars in the sky! All this time we hadnt seen a single star in the empty sky! Now there were, and among them, there two brightest stars giving such radiant glow. That’s our stars, we claimed. Hehe.
I kind of thought, ‘kita kayak orang majus aja, pas natal lagi, nyari Tuhan (pergi ke gereja) ga tau arah. Dan pas malem2, penunjuk nya bintang paling terang di langit. Tapi kok bintang nya ada dua? Dan kok malah ujung2nya bintang nya diatas Hwa Chong?’
Then i simply conclude, ‘yaudahlah, berarti bagus Tuhan Yesus ada di Hwa Chong.’ and that brightened my gloomy day! Hahaha. Seru juga hari ini.
Monday, December 1, 2008
if you want me to
The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone
So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through
And I will walk through the darkness
If You want me to
-ginny owens, if you want me to
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