postholiday mood.

yeapp im back from indonesia! how was it? cant describe. i was happy but sad but hm. idk. its like a weird kind of mixed up feelings. i always get mixed up feelings i wonder why. jhoan and demas tried to explain in to me haha. i'll update the detail story later *if i have the mood and the time*

so im back. safe and sound in my lovely hostel. i unpack my stuff and do the-maids-job cleaning my room, re-sorting my stuff, looked at my agenda for homeworks, eat my homemade nastar! *superyummy*, and re-decorate my room

this is me after holiday
new tshirt *kembaran sm levin sm demas*
hair rolled up *baru belajar triknya dari tili haha*
*looks so much nicer and easier drpd pake rol rebek*
gambar orang2 diblakang gw kasih background
kasur gw covered with bedcover made by ka eli
and there's a new laptopper below floopsy *boneka gw*



tomorrow's school again! *sigh*
miss the friends but not the work

aaa i really need to update my blog more often. missing so much stories already. the summaries are written in my HP notes and they're like sooo much and i havent had the mood to post 'em here.

i guess im over with the 'lil fonts and colorful posts' hahaha xp

bena said the font is too small. really? fine. i'll make it bigger. just slightlybigger.

its 5days to indonesia! im supah' excited! yippie yippie yeayy.

and, i had a lot of fun today. escaping homeworks and all those pile of books i need to study. having fun with my girls. detailed story and pictures later. *yepp we took pics! 128 in total. in 3hours* hahaha.

yet we even havent called it a day. we went back and took some more pics in the room, then we watched sevenpounds. very thought-provoking. a masterpiece! i like the climax: 911. there's an emergency, someone is comitting suicide// who's the victim? // i am. wowowooo that was cool.

then we spent like 15minutes for the after thought. we discuss the movie thouroughly. the movie deserves a 20thumbs up! *mine and the other girls altogether* again, detailed review later.

oh i got a headache. its running late. and got church tomorrow. goin to city harvest. yey. fun fun fun. im gonna put in some more thoughts from the sermon *hopefully*

whoops. not just my head, now my stomach also hurts. aw whats happenin. i need my beauty sleep right away. remove the black surrounding my eyes.

nighty night :) smooches!

i like writing in small fonts now! it looks more concised and cute. with lotsa colors too! with more random posts, with more updates, with more pictures! im motivated to start actively blogging again! yeay. hahaha

*letssee how long this will last :p

the first part of revelation2 was conveyed to the ephesians. they've done everything right but for this one: they left their first love. they left, not lost. if you lose something, thay may be because you're too busy *like how i am now, not feeling His presence for these past periods* but its done unintentionally. but left is a diff thing.

they need to go back to the first love. how? 3Rs mentioned in verse5.

remember. repent. return.

know your mistakes first and the reason why you left Christ at first, then repent. but there's the last step: return to your first works.

what is the first works? when you say first works, that mean priority. that means you do first things first. that means there is no time for unnecessary things.

then what are the first works God wants us to do?

nothingness

last wk's sermon was well-presented. the pastor spoke about his new year's resolution:
live a life of nothingness.
a life with nothing to lose. nothing to prove. nothing t o hide.

we always want to have something, but dont y'all know that some nothing is also good?

nothing to lose: as we get older, we posses more things and we are constantly worried that we're gonna lose 'em. solution? surrender everything *and yeap, everythingmeans everything* to God. say, God i believe you know whats best fo' me so this is my all i give to you. so when everything's in God's hands then you aint got nothin to lose!

nothing to prove: we live in a world that always wants to prove somethin'. prove that you're smart, you're able to do this and that and blah blah blah. but there's just too much pressure in living that life dont ya' think? who are you trying to impress anyway?

nothing to hide: put off yr mask! no more two-faced this year. start with a clean page. one thing i've learnt: by being whoever you are, there's always people who'll like and dislike you. so just be plainly who you are, though some may not like it, its better than being who you are not and having people disliking you, thats a double burden right?

conclusion: i want to be better this year. and i will. i know i will.
haha yeah this is just a random short post.

smooches xD